Wednesday, January 25, 2012


you know what's worse than losing someone you love? It's to know when you go to sleep, there is nothing to wake up for. nothing to look forward to. time is just periods of light and periods of dark. all past, no future. blankness, emptiness. a void.
I used to be very creative. now, why bother.

Monday, January 9, 2012


Lonely, lost, empty days. too devastated to take myself away. Like my brother, I never expected to end up alone. and I do mean alone. no one for backup.
there are some nice people showing up. offering help or aid. very unexpected.
I'm too old to get a dog, even a used doggy who needs a new owner. I couldn't care for it. and then tey sicken and die, no, never again. I've had enough death.