Tuesday, May 22, 2012


Dale was influenced by the song: You Don't Bring Me Flowers---.
He knew I loved flowers. especially, roses. So, where ever we lived, if there was any kind of space. He would plant a bush, or other things.
He tried florist flowers, but didn't last a week. When I became floral designer, we found out why.
(that's another story.)
Then when we moved here, my husband(dearest one) put in 15 bushes. and had a good time tending them.
since he passed the bushes and the garden began to go weedy. and dry. no one to care for it. I couldn't.
Finally, as Easter approached, I noticed something red on one bush. I went out and inspected it.
There was a single red rose coming on. the only one in the entire garden. I knew was from him.
Because, you see. It bloomed on Easter Day. Which I knew it would.
After that, I hired a gardener, and have been enjoying watching Dale send me roses, until I leave.
Here is a picture, it's not lush, but it's lovely to me.

Friday, May 11, 2012


what a pace, as I leave this place,
sifting though the excess of my life.
so many decisions, what to take and
what leave.
how much I have, I can't believe.
I wanted very much to have a nest.
and place away from the world
where we could find some rest.
yes, our own citadel of solitude,
Because Life, can be so very rude.
What's interesting about this wish,
One time my husband came home and after he shut the door. He remarked, ugh, it's so depressing here, change your clothes and we will go out somewhere.
I kept our home calm and quiet, soft music. or TV on low. because I grew up in a chaotic home. My little poodle liked it that way too.
I was very hurt and bewildered. It took me years to talk to him about it. If things weren't at a light speed pace, he didn't know how to handle it. turns out his childhood home was chaotic too.
Took most of our married life to get stuff out of him.e was here.
Men, getting them to talk takes great finesse and patient perseverance.
In fact, I've learned more about since he passed away, than I knew when he was here.
I've come across things, as I sort through his things. Stuff I can tell, he hid, but did leave for me to find. Explains much about his psyche.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012


Changes in The wind, suggested an air bed. Well, I do sort of have one. I was so lonely, and a friend just broke up with her boyfriend(she's younger than me.) And came to stay with me until I move. I sent her to Target, those beds were on sale. $60.00. however, plus extras, to about up to $70.00. She's sleeping on it now. The air beds need a good mattress cover, or they are cold.
It's a so, so, bed.
But, I want something I can use every day, to curl up on and read, watch, TV, draw(a little), or take a nap without messing up my bed.
I don't know yet. I've decided to wait until I actually get up there.
A love seat would be nice. But, brother and his two sons are all, over six feet tall.
I just had some nasty, expensive dental work and it rather cut into my budget. So, I will have to take awhile to furnish my modular. I have the bare basics right now.

Friday, May 4, 2012


I've thinking of getting a day bed for the living area, rather than a sofa. but as I look at the photos of my new home. a daybed would be too big. I hate sofas. they are big, clunky and unappealing. but I will need a guest bed.
here is a picture of a daybed I saw online.